Bio

Another paper down... 3 more papers to go. Somehow I feel very disappointed with my performance in this A levels. I think I would do very badly for all the subjects. Getting an A seems almost impossible for any subject. Sigh. I still think doing ok for prelims is a no-no.


I don't think the problem lies with the papers, I think the problem lies in ME. To think I cant even spell gibberellin. Horrible. To speak the truth, I haven't really been performing up to standards. Perhaps I had the same feelings during Prelims, which I can't rmb, but i do hope I'm just being too paranoid and pessimistic and that things aren't as bad as I think. The only chance to save my bio paper is the MCQ, which i doubt can save me much.


I'm feeling quite funny now. On one hand, I hope people will console me, telling me that things aren't that bad, on the other hand, I rather people around me just not say anything and just let me face up to reality. I also don't know. But i do know that hearing how others keep getting the right ans does not sound consoling at all. I'm not implying that others are not supposed to get the right ans, but it only shows how lousy I've been.


1 more Bio MCQ, 2 more S Papers, 4 more nights, 5 more days...

hello!

Have been posting a lot lately. All because of some stupid messages that made me angry.


But anyway, 1 more week to end of my exams. Can't wait to have lunch with Zj on the last day, can't wait to go out with Seige, can't wait to contact NHB and start work as a liason officer, can't wait to make preparations for my EOY NZ trip...and the list goes on. I'm not going to bother abt some outings that some poeple, who knew that I can't go, organised, cos I can't go. Thats simple.


Of course I quite envy those who didn't take Bio, cos their papers ended just yest, and think abt it, they're already enjoying their hols right now, when I still have 4 more papers to go. But I really don't mind lah, afterall I chose the subjects and papers I want to take. Its good for me. 6 days really aren't a lot. Can survive de. And this, is self-encouragement. And speaking of that, I haven't started studying for Mon's Bio option yet. Maybe later lah, slack first more impt. Haha.

Long time no see

I realised I have't been blogging since abt 1 week ago. Thou nobody may be reading, but I might as well post something.


I don't wish to sound depressed, but I really think I'm a goner. Whats the point of doing well during prelims and not doing wellin the actual A levels? And thats the precise predicament I'm in right now. I'm so very disappointed with the many stupid mistakes in my maths paper. I think I'm placed at a very risky spot. I really will knock my head against anything I can find if my carelessness had caused my grade to drop from A to B. Physics was horrible also. Had I not made so many mistakes in the MCQs which cost 2m each, I think i wouldn't have died so horribly. But over liao, too bad.


I just received a phone call from a crazy fella. The first thing he said to me was "What are you doing now?" I was totally shocked and filled with qn marks. I asked him who he was, he told me to guess. I asked him if he had made a wrong call, he said no and told me not to be like that. Like what?!! Am I supposed to entertain someone whom I don't know? To hell with him, man. Scare people like that past midnight. Luckily I'm still awake, if not I would have been...don't know, maybe shocked to death? Haha, anyway, I scolded him and hung up on him. Too bad, just his luck to make a prank call like that and got answered by me. Crazy fella!

Short break

Finally can rest for 2 afternoons liao.The 2 day "marathon" was horrible. So many things to study, so little time to study.Think I will shatter some day, if I'm not given theis 2 afternoon' rests. Ok, now I dont even know what I'm typing.


Miss Wong gave us all cookies this morning. She baked them herself. Wow! Each pack consists of 3 pieces of cookies...supposed to form a "100" so that we can score 100 for our chem paper. Haha, you think its possible? I already minus off don't-know-how many marks liao. Heh...


For yesterday's bio, it was so-so. Not all that I studied came out, but all that I didn't study did appear. Stupid paper. But somehow I think its much better than Prelims. Is it? Actually i also don't know. Give me a few more days to think about it and I might say otherwise.


Yesterday's maths was ok. I ALMOST freaked out when I saw the 1st G.P. qns. Then the 3D trigo qns was such a discrete and difficult one. People like ZJ, KS all got 20.6 degrees for the angle. Me? I got 40.6 degrees. I wrong lah, obviously. Don't ask me where the extra 20 degrees come from, I don't know. I never get 3D trigo qns right de. NEVER! Ok lah, overall minus 12 marks liao. Still got 88 marks. Haha, what a nice number. Yah, as if I won't have other mistakes like that. Haha.

No more GP...

No more GP..., yah at least for the time being. So difficult leh...I usually don't do mass media qns, but there's almost no time for me this time round. I was quite frank in my survey form. I really didn't know much about Newspapers and Magazines, but thats as much as I know about charity, entrepreneurship, politics, myths and legends. But I didn't even knowif its "The Straits Times" or "The Straits Time"...I chose the former. Was I right? Served me right for not reading the papers. Haha. And I almost couldn't finish cos I crazily rewrote my essay twice. Crazy. And of course I stiked out the technology qns, only to feel a little betrayed after the paper and hearing some comments...Thats for Paper 1. Paper 2...horrible! I felt like sleeping even before I've finished reading my 2-page long passage. What freedom of speech, right of life...I felt so deprived!- of don't know what...time and knowledge maybe haha...


Anyway, its over liao, no point thinking about it anymore le hor...but its so unlike of me to think this way, so I guess this GP exam can still keep my mind occupied for at least a few days more. Hope that Mrs Ho doesn't come after me because of the lousy survey form reply...I was just being frank!


Oh by the way, I think our Miss Indian invigilator was great. Haha. And such a coincidence that the blur Mr Ang Moh that me, ZJ, Lam and Jac saw this morning was one of our invigilators too.

Start of the A-levels

Tmr...the day...of A-levels GP Papers. Stressed ah! Haha, GP is neither my favourite subject nor my best subject...I don't know what to do with it either. Get it over and done with asap better. Haha. Good luck to me!


Oh, and I'm so touched that my good friend, Seige actually dropped by (don't know if I'm still her good friend or not, haha). I was really just thinking about her yest and this afternoon and, poof, her name appeared on my tagboard. Hey friend, shall we go out after mine and your exams?

Irresponsibilty

Another hazy weekend...actually I'm quite used to it already. Tmr is the 2nd official day of school. I really think I will miss all my friends...afterall 2 years is still a lot. We started off not knowing each other and ended up enjoying many happy moments together. Even short bus journeys to the Bedok Interchange can be very enjoyable too. Although I can't say that I've got a very good class, but at least the gals in my class are really wonderful.


Till now I still feel very guilty. I helped KS checked his physics prelim paper and yet I missed out a point which could have scored him 1 mark and will make a grade difference. I did check, but I think I just missed that part out. Luckily he found out and claimed the mark. Although he didn't blame me, but i feel that its really my fault. I feel so irresponsible and guilty and sad...even till now. I doubt he'll ever trust me again...cos I think that's how I'll feel if i were in his shoes.


And of course, I made another dumb mistake during the week by making 5 people (including myself) do a Biochem worksheet which wasn't due till the next lecture. I didn't do it on purpose...it really didn't occur to me that we'll be doing the other physical chem worksheet for that very lecture. I think some people were not happy but they didnt scold me. I rather they scold me, at least I know how they feel and by being scolded, I'd feel much better...


I've been trying very hard, but sometimes i get the feeling that I'm still not responsible enough. But I've really tried...and I'm really very tired...I think I'm just a very lousy chem rep and I'm sure thats how some of the guys in my class feel...

Brand new Sunday

Ah...finally a brand new and fresher day. Yesterday was so trrible. I feel as if I was living in some hazy hazy world, without fresh air yesterday. Looking out of the window, I see like 60% haze and 40% scenary. It was really very bad. For the first time after how-many-donkey-years, the PSI hit more than 100. The worst was last night, with PSI of 150. 150!!! Can you believe it or not? We are in Singapore leh, not Indonesia...Then the night before was also terribly terrible. I smelled smoke, but my parents smelled none. My sister was fed up with my constant complaints about me being suffocated. But it was really bad mah...somemore people were carrying lanterns, playing sparkles and burning anything they can find in the park nearby...how good do you think the air quality can be?


Today was much much better. Right now the PSI is only about 37. Great huh? Anyway, we went Pan Pacific Hotel this afternoon for the MINDEF Scholarship Talk. Ok lah, the scholarship is definitely fantastic (they have only awarded 38 scholarships over the past 10 yrs) but if you are talking about the 3-mth BMT and OCS training, I really don't mind giving it a miss. Then the atmosphere is always the best when it comes to Q&A. As usual, not many people asked. It was supposed to end by 5pm, yet by 5pm I was already at home. Haha. The food was nice though...But today was definitely not my happiest day anyway.


& Talk about coincidence, ZJ and I were on the same train on our way to City Hall. Haha, where got so qiao one...

Maths Lecture +++

Today's maths lecture was so interesting...putting the real purpose of the lecture aside, its really fun to hear about things like hamming code and how the last letter of our NRIC is determined. I always thought its a random event. Haha. But whö's taking maths in University? Crazy ah...


And i find things between me and her turning about funny, but I don't know how to describe. What's going on? Actually I roughly know the reason why, and if thats really the case, I definitely don't quite like the reason. I have never treated her this way before...sigh. But there's no way I'm giving in to her just because of her comments...

Of results and CCA draft

Today got back almost all the results, except bio. Anyway, I already knew my MCQ score, terrible lor. Other results still ok lor. Hope that the A grade cut-off for Chem is below my score, if not I would go bang my head against the wall. So near yet so far is the kind of feeling that I detest the most. My bio sure isn't going to make it. If I can get a pass and above, is very good already.


Checking of CCA Draft was horrendous, so messy. Didn't know that the school computer system is actually so screwed up, mistakes here-there-everywhere. Lousy. Many people's summaries were of 2 pages, mine only 1 page, so pathetic, like I very contribution-less like that. Compared to my Sec 4 CCA record which filled almost the whole page, when others' were only half the page...sigh.


People have already started studying for A-levels while I'm still in the exam-just-over kinda mood. Terrible. Still can afford to waste time talking during the 1h 20 min buffer time somemore...hosei ah. Haha.

End of Prelims

Yeah, finally finish my prelims liao. Its so funny...at 1 moment I'm receiving my exam scripts, the next moment, I'm sitting in the exam hall, doing yet another paper. Haha. S Papers were tough, needless to say, to think the physics qns that I attempted was actually gone thru by Mr Chan during one of the sessions, yet I still got it totally wrong. Haha, who ask me nvr study...


Got back my maths paper liao, all thanks to my paper 1 pulled me up or you can also say all thanks to my paper 2 pulled me down... some people around me all get 90+++, make me seem so lousy like that. Sigh, but never mind lah. Bio so far is just just just passed only. Still got 89 marks worth of scripts with the teachers...whether my wish come true all not all lies in my DESTINY. Haha, I have no CHOICE!


Oh and speaking of that, I still have my essay and AQ on DESTINY and CHOICE awaiting me. Sigh, I want to rest also cannot. Tired leh...

End of Part 1

I call this the end of part 1, cos thats the end of the core papers. 2 more S Papers to go. Actually, I think the stress level has reduced by quite a lot by now. Cos I know I won't make it for S Papers, so anything above an "U" grade is considered very remarkable already. But even if thats the case, I don't see why the school is so unfair to have lessons in the morning. Why, don't need to study at all is it? I want my definition marks ok!


Actually I did regret...not abt taking S Papers, its abt not taking Maths S Paper. Cos I think my Physics is really getting from bad to worse. But its too late already. And I too regret taking the Triple Sci combi instead of Double Maths. Bio is really hard leh, and I'm so so sick of bio that I really don't know how I'm going to survive the actual paper. It really seems as if no matter how hard I've tried or how much effort I've put in, there's still no improvement. Once again, be glad that my results don't deteriorate...


And Mrs Ho was the very very 1st teacher to 'feed' us with GP compre. So fast eh? According to her command, I'm only supposed to touch it after S papers, but maybe if I'm in a good mood tonight, I will try to complete so that its ready for discussion on Tues, but depends on my mood. Haha....

Another break...

Yeah, 2 more MCQ papers and 2 more S papers to go...I'm glad that the prelims are finally coming to an end, very very soon, but it will only be abt 1 month before the actual A levels. My goodness, its fast eh? I'm not going to do well for this prelims, I know, don't tell me, and don't doubt me too.


Anyway, luckily there's no paper tmr, so I can stay at home and SLACK. Ok lah, rest would probably be a more apt word. Once again, tonite's gonna be the absolute refractory period again, to prevent exhaustion and fatigue. Haha. No depolarisation so no influx of any knowledge at all. All the knowledge-sensitive channels are closed. Too bad! Haha. I'm crazy.

Disappointment

Its disappointing...the prelim of course and something else related to someone else. Talk abt the prelim 1st. I know its meant to be hard. But I don't see the need for killer papers right? I'm referring to Physics P2 and Biology. To the smart people out there, I really don't mind if they beg to differ, but thats how I feel.


Regarding the next something, theres nothing much to talk abt. Maybe I'm just petty or too sensitive, but i trust my sense and intuition. Sigh, make me feel sad. Sickening person.


Anyway, just hope that the upcoming papers will be better. I'm left with Physics P3, Chemistry P1 & 2, Biology P1 and 2 S Papers. They will be difficult and thats needless to say. To avoid further disappointment, I shan't think of anything else and I shall go to sleep. I need that sleep!!!

1 week less...1week more

Yah yah, 1 week of break gone and 1 week more of hols before prelims...PRELIMS!!! My goodness, its such an impt exam and somehow i don't feel the sense of anxiety and urgency and whatever-u-call-it at this moment, despite having the whole of physics and bio untouched! Should I panic or laugh or what?I don't know. I guess I'll just blog.

Last day

Today - the last day of the term. The next time i see my friends...oh gosh! Its gonna be Prelims, which is like 2 weeks away. Seriously and strictly speaking, I haven't started studying at all, and here i am, still blogging away. Fine.


We didn't celebrate much actually. just some well-wishes and a mug for each teacher. And a cake for Ah Chong. Really reminds me of how 4e1 didn't show our appreciation during 2004 Teachers' Day cos we were busy with our prelim preparation. I didn't know the teachers actually expected students to give them something. As in, of course they know that students would give them something, but i didn't know they would actually say it out so openly. Yah.


'Bought 2 6R class photos. Really regretted not buying last year, so i don't have a complete set now. But anyway, its ok since i don't like CG last year anyway. But I don't really approve of the way the photog society handle our photos. First there was a minimum orde of $120, then there's the 150% 6R and 8R order. Now, they say they can't develop 4R photos, cos there's someting wrong with the machine. Yah, how convenient.


Back to the last day talk, yah, today the last day, quite slack too. There were only 4 guys who turned up officially. I guess the rest of the people pre-empted that nothing much would be done today. Seems like they are right. Great foresight huh! Anyway, I don't intend to return within the next 2 weeks, so yah. So long!

Things to say...

It really makes me feel rather weird and uneasy seeing the things that people write and their phrasing of words. I mean, is it realy true that everyone becomes a different person once he/she gets hooked on to the PC? Apparently it is, cos there seems like a few cases already. But I don't think I'm like them, cos at this very moment, I'm still thinking like the way I always think. Or has my personality already splitted without my knowledge?


This is my last official week for this school term. Fortunately, cos its only Mon, and I'm already feeling the kind of Fri's tiredness. Really, its a kinda mixed emotions. On one hand, I'm so glad not having to wake up early, to do all those dumb bio rev tests, don't need to attend GP lessons, no more S Papers, no more yucky canteen food...etc...and the list goes on...at least for the next 2 weeks. (Wow, I didn't know that there're actually so many things i dreaded about school). But on the other hand, I feel a little sad. Maybe cos it means I would be seeing less of my friends, CG people, ZJ & company...


Its approx 2-3 weeks before Prelims, and i can feel some of the people around me are going haywire soon. Me too. I really really have NO confidence for Bio. At all. I can really imagine myself staring blankly at the essay qns, like what i did during JCT, not knowing what to write at all. At this moment, I really wish to drop the subject, chuck it aside and never look at it anymore. I've never loathed Bio so much...its...I really don't know how to say.

Lets put it this way. There are so many things that i don't understand...and these are the things that many of us not understand too, or so they claimed. But I don't take things lying down...but i have nobody to turn to...ZJ had a shock out of her life when she saw how HE reacted when I asked HIM an MCQ. Hello!...its only MCQ...what reaction am I supposed to get if its an essay qns? I think HE would freak out. I think I would too. But no matter what, I'm still going to try my best. Yah, it sounds cliche, but tell me, what can i do? I have no choice right?


Right.


And for once, I really think that the songs sung by 5566 are actually so nice...

Tests and Results...

This week is really a terribly a busy week. Mon-Bio Rev Test Tues-Biochem Test, Wed-Ionic/Chem Equilibrium Self Test, Thurs-Electrochem Self Test, Fri-Physics Lecture Test, Bio Rev Test. I'm going crazy soon. Thank goodness, tmr is Friday and the week is finally ending. But so what? There's tonnes of work waiting for me to complete over the wkn.

Nanyang Concept Test results are out. I failed, of course, i didn't study or prepare for it anyway. 25/60. u think i can be in the 50th percentile, so that i can get at least a merit? I doubt so. Anyway, whats done cannot be undone, so too bad lah.

Mystery Unraveled!

It was that dumb ear stud or whatever you call it. My ear has been blocked for 2 whole days. At first, though impossible, we thought it was water. The when that dumb green thing went missing, I suspected it went in. Nobody believed me. Or rather, nobody believed that something would actually drop into my ear.


Finally went to Ployclinic to check today. They referred me to A&E of Changi General Hospital. It was scary. I was brought to that room, with all the metal forceps and scapels and equipment. The Dr first placed that long metal vacuum thing into my ear. I could feel the wind gushing into my ear. But nothing came out. He said that the ear stud had pierced through the flesh, and its stuck there. My goodness, I could've fainted on the spot. I was so scared I would become deaf or what after everything. And I was also scared that the Dr would have to perform surgery to get that thing out. I was just so worried. I was trembling, of course, from my teeth to my toes.


Then he used another sharper metal instrument, together with some liquid in my ear. U could've imagined the pain when that metal thing went poking and scraping along my ear canal. I was told not to shout, or to move. Fine. I pinched myself. At the end of the whole 'torture', well that ear stud finally came out. Both my ear and leg was painful. I was prescribed eardrops, in case of infection. But well, finally my hearing's back to normal. And I know there's nothing stuck in my ear canal.


It was really scary and painful. But I'm glad I didn't wait till a few days later before I see the Dr. It could've been worse. I've learnt a lesson- always to take off my ear rings before I sleep.

The last of NAPFA

I just ran the last official 2.4km of my life. Hooray! No more inclined pull-ups, no more standing broad jump, no more sit n reach...My nightmares, whether you believe it or not. Though its already like 2 days since I did my 5 items test, my body is still aching like crazy. You know I had such a hard time getting up from bed!! I can't laugh hard, or else...Haha.


I don't know, but i think some of my class guys are downright selfish. Why can't they help us gals take our timings? It doesn't happen in other classes leh...What's the big deal about playing soccer? We are all classmates! But I'm grateful that someone took my timing for me.


Today's run was terrible. I didn't feel well even before I started running, but its the last time already. By the 3rd round, I can feel myself almost fainting. I see pple all around me, then my sides were so so so pain. Then i heard someone calling my name, I'm not sure lah, as I was in a half-conscious state. But I just continued running. From my timings, I could see myself decelerating. Haha. So physics. But its true. I'm quite comforted at least he asked whether I was ok, cos I was feeling so unwell. I felt like going home. Thanks gals, who helped me.


Then today for chem, Miss Wong said sth that shocked me, which I didn't expect her to know.
I think the maths test was ok, so long as there weren't any deadly careless mistakes, which I'm so proned to make. Haha. So much so. And speaking of that, all our guys went round the school this morning, under the command of the PE teacher, in search of the luncher. It was so funny, its like some massive search or treasure hunt or sth, so interesting. Physics lesson was fun, with the exercises that were encouraged by Hello Kitty, and the bet that she made with us.


Yesterday's photo shoot was fun. Yah, making fun of pple. we insisted on going to some funny funny places to take our informal shots, when the photog pple keep insisting that they have a tight schedule. In the end, they still gave in, after much pestering from us and Ah Chong. But the formal shoot is no good, I think. I don't like "bird's eye view" kind of photo. But no choice, shall see how it turns out.


And yesterday, I also saw my level ranking. I thought I would have dropped a lot, surprisingly, I didn't. Instead I crept to 64. Luckily still in top 10%. But anyway, A-levels is the only exam that really matters.